Bitey said:
As for the girl, don’t feel like it is over, in a year she might dump that guy, keep being you, because odds are she likes you for who you are, this desperate *edited* of trying to kill yourself doesn’t look good to her, it looks just like what it is, desperate. You can still salvage your situation by being confident in you and finding the niche for your life that you need to express that. Although some girls have the “I need to fix you” syndrome, not all girls do, so if she has the choice between depressed suicidal boy and the other guy I think the choice is easy to make. Anyways, *edited* your friend for *edited* blocking you, that ain’t right, but you can’t dwell on that, have to move on and forward. Jealousy isn’t attractive, neither are the other traits you’re displaying right now.
Well the thing about her is, she only dated my friend for a month lul, but when I was away from school she dated and *edited*ed a bunch of dudes I went to high school with. I know how pathetic I may seem, but that *edited* hurts. It still bothers me, but I’m mostly passed that now. I’m not as concerned about the original causes anymore. I just feel miserable all the time for no apparent reason anymore. I’d be lying if I said I’m 100% over that girl/friend, but whatever. It doesn’t bother me as much as it used to. She’s single, but we don’t really talk that much anymore. Maybe hang out once a week. I ruined my friendship with my best friend by being a jealous/depressed retard. Maybe one day we can be friends again. I’m not even concerned about money/school right now. Some days I feel okay, but most of the time theres just this horrible sadness that haunts me and I can’t figure out why. I really think I’ve made good progress past the original causes (school, money, girls, stressing about the future), but I still feel terrible, if not worse.
NuRayz, I know what you’re saying. I obviously don’t have it as bad as some people. I just feel miserable like 70% of the time. I’m not asking for people to feel sorry, I’m asking if people have gone through this and what they did to get out of it. Everyones experience is different I guess. I don’t believe in God, but I went for a long hike in the woods by myself not too long ago after it rained (it was beautiful out) and it did feel really good afterwards, but unfortunately that sadness came back.
Hopefully this weekend involves drinking and partying.