Bitey said:
lockEm said:
Bitey said:
As for the girl, don’t feel like it is over, in a year she might dump that guy, keep being you, because odds are she likes you for who you are, this desperate *edited* of trying to kill yourself doesn’t look good to her, it looks just like what it is, desperate. You can still salvage your situation by being confident in you and finding the niche for your life that you need to express that. Although some girls have the “I need to fix you” syndrome, not all girls do, so if she has the choice between depressed suicidal boy and the other guy I think the choice is easy to make. Anyways, *edited* your friend for *edited* blocking you, that ain’t right, but you can’t dwell on that, have to move on and forward. Jealousy isn’t attractive, neither are the other traits you’re displaying right now.
Well the thing about her is, she only dated my friend for a month lul, but when I was away from school she dated and *edited*ed a bunch of dudes I went to high school with. I know how pathetic I may seem, but that *edited* hurts. It still bothers me, but I’m mostly passed that now. I’m not as concerned about the original causes anymore. I just feel miserable all the time for no apparent reason anymore. I’d be lying if I said I’m 100% over that girl/friend, but whatever. It doesn’t bother me as much as it used to. She’s single, but we don’t really talk that much anymore. Maybe hang out once a week. I ruined my friendship with my best friend by being a jealous/depressed retard. Maybe one day we can be friends again. I’m not even concerned about money/school right now. Some days I feel okay, but most of the time theres just this horrible sadness that haunts me and I can’t figure out why. I really think I’ve made good progress past the original causes (school, money, girls, stressing about the future), but I still feel terrible, if not worse.
I understand, it is good that you have gotten past those things, but getting past them is just the first step, you may always feel sad, but the point is to push past the sadness and find something that makes you feel happy, this is a big world, if you can’t find one thing in it that makes you happy, then yeah I dunno how you lived 22 years lol. But with all seriousness, you at least know there are people that care about you, whether it be tough love or understanding love, it is love all the same, it is someone taking time out of their day to chat with you about this. Every day will be a fight, and is a fight for most people. I really think that for you that you need to really find something as a hobby that you really enjoy, spend most of your time doing that, and it will most likely envelope the sadness and eventually make it come less often and be easier to deal with. It is just an idea and it may not work because I am not doctor, but it is what worked for me and so that is the best advice I can give you.
I have a hobby. It’s playing guitar. I’ve been playing guitar for the past 7-8 years. Lately I find it difficult to pick it up and play for more than 10-15 minutes. It’s so hard to concentrate on the things I enjoy now. I love going out with friends and having a good time, but sometimes I would just rather lay in bed and dwell on the negative *edited* (I don’t actually want to do that, it just feels that way).
I tried to go to work today, I went to the bathroom to take a *edited* before my shift started, I just looked at myself in the mirror and broke down crying and had to leave. I’m going to take the week off work I think. I can’t handle going back there right now. If I do take the week off I’m going to focus on music and exercising. I sort of have a plan.